i can't imagine that i'm keeping myself awake, because of YOU. when i know that it's not worth it.

what did i just say about forgetting YOU?

gosh can't you just fall asleep so i can go and sleep as well?!

go for what supper alone at this hour, making me worry that you'll be ALONE if i didn't reply your sms, if you replied me, when you can FORGET to reply me?

i hate myself for being weak like this.

weak like a loser.

pls let me have dissociative amnesia

forget it, hui zhen, forget about it.

forget him, hui zhen, forget about him.

i know that the only thing i can do now is to pick myself up, and move on.

i would be lying if i say that i'm not dwelling over today's paper..

but, no point crying over spilled milk.

i know it very well then i did not do my best.

i'm sorry for not meeting your expectations.

i hope i won't disappoint you this time round, which is also the last time ever.

i really hope i won't.

keeping promises

i just wanna say, that i really hate it when people make promises and don't keep it. But my attitude towards people making promises have changed through the years... i used to believe stupidly in him/her every time he/she made a promise... Now, i would just listen, and try to forget. What goes through my mind when someone makes a promise is, 'sigh, forget it man'.

Once you break a promise, i would administer you under the 'people who does not keep their promises' category.

Adults always make empty promises to children, thinking that they will eventually forget.. But no, they will remember. At least i did when i was young.

So my words to (all of) you out there: Don't say it if you can't keep it or make it happen. No point bringing a moment of joy to someone and then a lifetime of disappointment and lost of faith in YOU.

it's surprising how you can have long virtual conversation with someone whom you have not met for 5 yrs, and talk like you know each other for 10 yrs, call the other person pig for snoozing alarm for 2 hrs, etc etc.....

perhaps this is just part of being 'sociable' & 'friendly', and not really feeling that close as it seems to be...

i hope what happened around the same time last year won't happen again this time round....

please remind me not to sink to deep into it...i hope i haven't...or have i? =/

on a lighter note (even though i don't really find it lighter), i hope i'll do really well in my exams...at least for this paper...because only that, then i can feel more redeemed for not attending his last lecture, and have the courage to ask him to come on my convocation and take picture with him...for a lifetime memory sake...with that, i shall sink back into my small stack of notes...

Ganbatte Nihon-koku!!

Ganbatte Ramahiyuizaki!! =))

Good times for a change
See, the luck I've had
Can make a good man
Turn bad

So please please please
Let me, let me, let me
Let me get what I want
This time

Haven't had a dream in a long time
See, the life I've had
Can make a good man bad

So for once in my life
Let me get what I want
Lord knows, it would be the first time
Lord knows, it would be the first time

'mouse meat' aka 'lao2 shu3 rou4' aka 'muscles'

i see muscles forming, even on my left arm...i can see how my Hideyoshi is training my muscles....

makes me wanna go gym aft exams!!!wooooooooo!! =D