-=can you feel my world=-

Friday, March 27, 2009

happy + stressed = happily stressed?

everything's going to be due in a few days' time and now I'm FORCED to chiong everything out...sian...like I stayed up till 3 plus yesterday night to type out my ALS research paper(actually it was partly because I started only at 12am)... BUT still, it's tiring when you have to wake up at 6am the same morning, in a few hours' time. My complexion this days had been pretty terrible too...neither do I want any more panda eyes...So, I am very DETERMINED today to sleep BY 11am tonight...which is...in 17 mins' time? LOLS...oh well let me grumble on my work load...for next Thursday I'm suppose to have my ICT presentation plus another Maths quiz...and Friday I have to hand up the ALS essay plus use it to do a class test on ENGLISH!!!!I'm seriously wondering how the hell I'm gonna do it...Afterall it's known that my English sucks to the core...and I have yet got back my E-learning which I'm suppose to get back weeks ago...so I totally have NO IDEA how I've fared for my ALS...I totally dislike uncertainties...yet I have to bear with that feeling for another week...ARGGGHHHHHH.....*grumbles* And then the next week is another quiz, and then left with a week's break before my final exam comes...it's less than a month's time!and I'm totally not prepared...siannn...talking about exams reminds me of a test I just got back recently...I realise there is this thing built in me, that is very sensitive to hypocrites...I bet my mummy inserted some micro chip into my brain when I was born...you do know how it feels when you see someone begging for marks when he got 36.5 out of 40, when you only scored 32.5 out of 40...in addition to that, you happen to have a question whereby you can similarly beg for 2 marks too...yet you didn't, because you know that it is your fault for not justifying your answer. No shame leh. I just feel that that action of his simply just grossed me out.

Okay, let's not let such insignificant people ruin my night...and OH NO, it's already 11:01pm...looks like my determination is not afterall, very determine...hee...a few things happened in the past few days...

first is, I received my 'belated' birthday present from Karkoon a few days ago...from Taiwan...lols...because he WAS in Taiwan then, and he sent it to me on msn...it is a recording of Wang Lee Hom's Forever Love, in KK's version...sounds confusing?it simply means that he tried to play Forever Love without any music score...and it took him 3 months to practise, I think...so gan dong can~~ hehe...and 'cause it was not really the 'perfect' one, so he promised me that he'll record again, right? =D

the second thing is actually very lame...'cause Yang's msn nick was 'the man who cant be moved'...so when I saw it, I msned him, 'are u sure u cant be moved?nxt time i use trolley sure can move u' and then he LOL-ed...and the next time when I logged on, he asked 'zhen u cut hair? why ur hair so short'...and I was like 'huh???'...and then realise that he was talking about Robert Pattinson on my display pic...=.=" and then he said, 'now u know how i feel when u tell me ur trolley joke right'....wah piang....liddat also can!!haha....but I was really LOL-ing...=P

last but not least!!!!!!!!I received a long distance call today....from Taiwan...guess who is it?!!!HAHA....don't need to guess also know liao right~~ he really caught me by surprise...'cause my hp only displayed 'unknown'...I guessed/hoped that it was from him...and the moment I hear his voice, I know is him le~ =D though it was a rather short-long distance call, but I was already grinning from ear to ear...easily contented girl?no leh I don't think I am one...but then, I just feel very xing fu...haha...and I believe this phone call brightened up my day, a lot...thanks darl... =)

counting down, 12 more days before you'll be back from Taiwan, back to Singapore, and back to my side... =))

Sunday, March 22, 2009

难道我在你们的心目中真的这么不重要吗?

难道我真的这么不配做你们的好朋友吗?

难道你们没发觉我本来就是个比多数的人还要敏感的人吗?

难道你们不知道当我发现一些我不该知道的事情时,我会如何看待这友情吗?

难道你们不知道我对我自己有多么的没信心吗?

难道我就只是你们呼而者来,唤而者去的人吗?

难道我所为你们做出的一切,都不值得得到回报吗?

难道我真的是一个那么差劲的人吗?

难道我的努力你们都看不到吗?

难道我这辈子都得过如此提心吊胆,害怕有一天会失去你们的日子吗?

难道你们就是不能包容我的不完美吗?

难道我真的这么令人讨厌吗?

难道人与人之间真的这么难相处吗?

难道朋友就是不能有一辈子的吗?

能不能让我不那么没安全感,让我不去在乎他们怎么想?
能不能让我变得,一切都不用顾虑?
我真得好累... ...
能不能让我从此停下脚步,而一切的一切都变得不重要?

Monday, March 2, 2009

If I were a boy........

After listening to it XXXXtimes in Yang's car, I finally understand what the song actually meant, and instantly, I fall in love with it... Maybe because I find it very true... Afterall, in general, girls tend to be more sensitive than guys... So guys tend to do things without knowing that they have already hurt the girl they love... Somehow, I don't know why, when I sang along with this song, there is this 'feel like crying' feeling... And tears would just swell... *shrugs*

If I were a boy even just for a day
I'd roll out of bed in the morning
And throw on what I wanted
And go drink beer with the guys

And chase after girls
I'd kick it with who I wanted
And I'd never get confronted for it
'Cause they stick up for me

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I'd be a better man

I'd listen to her
'Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
'Cause he's taking you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

If I were a boy
I would turn off my phone
Tell everyone it's broken
So they'd think that I was sleeping alone

I'd put myself first
And make the rules as I go
'Cause I know that she'd be faithful
Waiting for me to come home, to come home

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I'd be a better man

I'd listen to her
'Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
'Cause he's taking you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

It's a little too late for you to come back
Say it's just a mistake
Think I'd forgive you like that
If you thought I would wait for you
You thought wrong

But you're just a boy
You don't understand
And you don't understand, oh
How it feels to love a girl
Someday you wish you were a better man

You don't listen to her
You don't care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
'Cause you're taking her for granted
And everything you had got destroyed
But you're just a boy