-=can you feel my world=-

Thursday, June 21, 2007

the newborn...

well...i should have written this long ago, but as usual, i dragged time until now...
it is now time to let the first phone i bought for myself take a rest,
as his newly born sister is out...=)
yesterday, i took the big brother out again, charged him, while i went through the messages...
ans all the sweet memories just surge back again...
what a nice feeling...and how much i've missed it...=)
i really can live in past memories...=)
my dearest 2 years old boy...
so much memories in you...
so much sweet memories that i can't even bear to delete any of them...
i promise you,
that you'll never be forgotten,
for you'll be a very important source where i am able to find reasons to be happy...=)
you'll nicely kept for the rest of my lives i promise...=)

that's my newborn, or maybe not really newborn, because she is already 4 months old...
she's a babe, isn't she?
i'm so gonna love her for the rest of my life...=)
the sweetest thing that can ever happen is that the picture of big brother is taken by little sister, and vise versa...=)

a sweet treat with love...=)

my last sat's breakfast prepared by melia with love!!
that's my second 爱心早餐 by melia!! =)
it was so nice that i forgot to take a picture of it before i eat...oops~!!
strawberry cheesecake with lotsa love!!! =D
melia didnt add too much sugar but its soooo sweet in the heart!!!
('cause it is loaded with lots of love!!!)
(and hey barry, you would have loved it!!haha...=P)
it got me all sweeeet in the heart~~~
thanks darling!!! =D

see how fast i finished it?
and see, it is so 'cleanly' eaten!! =D
such a sweet treat early in the morning...
(love is in the air!!)
omg i feel so bloated with love!!haha...
thanks again to my dearest!!love ya lots!! =D

welcome back!!

YEAH!!!
finally after almost three days of waiting...
you're finally back!!!
though i still have no idea what happened...=\
but i'm just glad you're fine...=)
glad to see you back again,
just like before...=)
i'm a happy girl again...=)

Monday, June 18, 2007

for you, my friend...

just as i wrote this blog, i'm still very worried...
for throughout this three years of friendship,
i've never seen you so 'not in the mood' before...
though i do not know what had happened...
but really hope that you would let me know...
although i did say that's okay even if you don't...
because most likely you wouldn't...
whether is it not the right time,
or is it not the right person...
i don't, and wouldn't know.......
but one thing i'm sure of - that is,
no matter what happens,
rest assured that i'll always be there when you need me...
oh...and yet this is not in anyway reducing my worries...
how do i feel better if you ain't?
sigh~

hopefully you'll feel better very much sooner,
hopefully you'll let me know by then...
hopefully i'll get less worried over you...
hopefully you wouldn't hang onto it for too long...
hopefully you will get over it soon...
hopefully a night's sleep will bring away all your troubles...
hopefully tomorrow you'll become a happy person again...
hopefully you have the right mood to talk to me again tomorrow...
hopefully..........

it hurts to see you being unhappy...it really does...
cheer up, and take cares my friend...

Saturday, June 16, 2007

inspiration...

while talking to one of my 'gf' today, i told her something that i myself, am very proud of, to be able to come up with such a sentence....(though i know i'll definitely fail my gp if i use that in my essay...'cause it seems like a rhetorical question...=/)but nevertheless, here it is....

some questions need not be asked,
for they had already been answered...

=)

Thursday, June 14, 2007

mayday...=)

for the first time that I've listen to the complete mayday's newest album, and other than those that are already popular, I fall in love with two other songs too...

I find this song's lyrics very meaningful...here it is:

五月天 - 米老鼠

一身黑皮肤 白手套 红短裤
一双大大耳朵
随时在向人打招呼
他是我朋友 陪我笑 陪我哭
尤其是当我 当我最无助
有他听著我倾诉
梦中 城堡里面跳舞
醒了 世界依然残酷
以为我爱著孤独
以为自己不会迷路
以为自己跟自己
再不用 谁照顾
以为我爱著孤独
却又崩溃的无助
谁能让我拥抱著 尽情的哭
谁是草莓族
你才是榴连族
一身伤人顽固
伤害我 还要我不哭
摩天轮停住
咖啡杯 不跳舞
孩子练习著
让悲伤麻木
快乐也开始麻木
梦中 城堡里面跳舞
醒了 世界依然残酷
以为我爱著孤独
以为自己不会迷路
以为自己跟自己
再不用 谁照顾
以为我爱著孤独
却又崩溃的无助
谁能让我拥抱著 尽情的哭
让我唯一的朋友 不是老鼠

As for this song, I find it quite amusing, yet romantic & sweet...take a look at the lyrics ba...=)

五月天 - 忘词

嗯嗯 搭啦 我又忘了
我应该应该应该应该唱什么
我应该应该应该应该怎么作
嗯嗯 搭啦 想起来了
我好像好像好像好像应该说
我好想好想好想好想对你说
在你的面前我就变得很笨拙
就像是一个不断忘词的歌手
我练习过 彩排过
这个时候 却又说不出口
你 你的温柔感动了我
我 忍耐太久内伤太重
在 这一秒我一定要说
就算失败 也不沈默
你 你的温柔感动了我
我 忍耐太久内伤太重
在 豁出去的那一秒钟
却又忘词 我噢噢噢
嗯嗯 搭啦 想起来了
我好像好像好像好像应该说
我好想好想好想好想对你说
上一句好像是有关你的形容
下一句好像希望你能答应我
我练习过 彩排过
这个时候 却又说不出口
你 你的温柔感动了我
我 忍耐太久内伤太重
在 这一秒我一定要说
就算失败 也不沈默
你 你的温柔感动了我
我 忍耐太久内伤太重
在 豁出去的那一秒钟
却又忘词 我噢噢噢
在你的面前我就变得很笨拙
就像是一个不断忘词的歌手
我练习过 彩排过
这个时候 却又说不出口
你 你的温柔感动了我
我 忍耐太久内伤太重
在 豁出去的那一秒钟
却又忘词 我噢噢噢
你 你的温柔感动了我
我 忍耐太久内伤太重
在 这一秒我一定要说
就算失败 也不沈默
sweet isn't it? =)

Friday, June 8, 2007

黑面娃娃--几米

recently read a very nice book and wanted to share with you guys here...so i extracted this 'short' story...enjoy!! =)


露露看起来像是个温柔的小女生,
但是她却喜欢虐待她的娃娃。
她研发了十九种不同的酷刑,
但是并不表示她不爱他,
这些都只是她的游戏… …
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她慢慢将他压入水底,直到他不再挣扎为止… …
露露将从小伴着她长大的黑面娃娃淹死在浴室里,
她说她只是想体验一下背叛的滋味。
那一刹那,她确确实实感到一丝内疚,
但也只有一下下而已。

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黑面娃娃每天最痛苦的时光,
就是主人露露拖着他
在公园的健康步道上来回行走,
反复思考该如何虐待她的玩伴。

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露露祈求上帝原谅,
她不是故意要伤害黑面娃娃,
她是真心想为他缝上一颗爱心,
让他从此更懂得怜惜与爱,
她是真心为他好。

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让黑面娃娃感到最惊恐的,
倒不是主人露露凌虐他的时候,
而是当她亲腻地抱着他吻他,
面露微笑什么话都不说时。

黑面娃娃无法忍受想象的折磨。

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黑面娃娃越是不喊痛,
露露越是愤怒地上下扯动树干,
奋力地摇晃,春天的树叶一片片掉落。
黑面娃娃好舍不得那些脆弱的叶片,
每一片都是大树无辜的孩子。

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露露残暴地踩着黑面娃娃的头,
黑面娃娃艰困地用眼角的余光
看着树上一朵朵美丽的花,
他努力吸入花的芳香,
想象自己正在天堂的花园里做SPA。

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露露送给黑面娃娃一朵美丽的玫瑰花,
并在他的额头上温柔地亲吻,
轻声地说:“一定要勇敢喔!”

黑面娃娃感动得泪流满面,
其至听不到火车轰轰奔驰而来的声响。

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露露再三向黑面娃娃保证,绝对不会伤害他。

轮盘快速旋转,露露用力抛出的飞刀,
真的一支都没有射中他。
黑面娃娃相信主人终究是爱他的。
他完全不知道露露因为失手,
气愤到整夜失眠。

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黑面娃娃从来没有做过船,
主人露露告诉他,坐船危险又容易晕船呕吐,
不如泡在水里舒服安全。

黑面娃娃浑身肿胀,满身腥臭,
但是他觉得好快乐。

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主人露露说她好嫉妒黑面娃娃,
因为她无法享受从高楼坠落的快感。
那一天下午,
黑面娃娃一共享受了八十八次快速下坠的快感。

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连续的闪电一直无法击中黑面娃娃,
主人露露愤恼地哭了。
善良的黑面娃娃以为露露的泪水为他而流,
竟暗自祈祷自己能被闪电击中,让主人开心。

雨下得好大,雷声隆隆。

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露露事先并没有让爸爸发现
她偷偷将黑面娃娃放在车轮下,
当车子缓缓启动时,露露适时地撒娇,
紧紧依偎在爸爸身边大声地歌唱。

黑面娃娃的痛,没有惊动任何人。

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露露希望黑面娃娃可以像火箭筒一般飞上天,
但她没有清楚地告诉黑面娃娃,
火箭升空后,会瞬间爆破成碎片… …

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主人露露生气了,
黑面娃娃却不知道自己到底犯了什么错。
善良的黑面娃娃在痛苦的当下许了一个愿,
希望夹他的大门千万不要受伤。

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黑面娃娃觉得全身滚烫,天旋地转。
他搞不清楚是怎么一回事,
远方有欢乐的笑声,愉悦的歌声,
风轻柔地吹过,空气中瀰漫着食物的香味… …

在他昏厥之前,听到小朋友兴奋的叫嚷声… …

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黑面娃娃被雨打醒了,
他仰望灰濛濛的高空
千万滴不断落下的小雨,
竟有一种幸福的感动。
打在他脸上的雨水
会不会是谁的一滴珍贵的泪呢?

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黑面娃娃觉得好冷,
渐渐地听不到任何声音,
闻不到任何气味。
他看见一个透明亮闪闪的世界,
他笑了起来,虽然他已毫无知觉。

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黑面娃娃被狠心地丢弃在幽暗的森林里,
他终于真正体会到被遗弃的悲凉。
他看着白云无声飘过天际,
他不知道自己到底做错了什么?
可怜的黑面娃娃还是不明白,
世界上很多问题是永远找不到答案的… …

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黑面娃娃不适合放在橱窗里让人驚豔讚嗼,
也不适合买来当礼物送人,
更不适合让长得像公主般的小孩拥抱。
他适合随地丢弃,
适合蒙上灰尘遗忘在任何角落。
他适合我,也适合你… …




doesn't it inspire you?here, the one below is the second part of the story, extracted from another one of his book...because he has got a total of five books for this series...=)




黑面娃娃被主人丢弃了,
他必须重新找一个主人。
他相信爱和付出
必然可以得到相同的回报… …

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黑面娃娃想要再找一个爱他的主人,
他相信只要他先付出爱,必然会找到真爱。
当他拥有爱,就拥有力量,
拥有力量,就可以拥抱希望,就可以坚强地活下来。
他的眼中闪出一道希望之光… …

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“妳愿意当我的主人吗?我可以为你做任何事。”黑面娃娃问。
小樱子只是往前走,没有回答他。
“如果妳不愿意,只要告诉我一声就好,我不会再缠着妳。”
小樱子继续往前走。
“妳听不见我说话吗?”
小樱子越走越远,完全不知道发生过什么事。
或许是阵阵海潮遮盖了这一切… …

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“你愿意当我的主人吗?我可以为你做任何事。”黑面娃娃问。
“我不需要任何人为我做任何事,我不需要仆人。”绷带人说。
“我可以给你很多爱与关怀。”
“我只需要我需要的,多余的我不想要。”
“过多的爱和关怀也会让人受不了吗?”
绷带人不再回答他,自言自语地说:
“一朵芬芳的玫瑰花教人怜爱,一万朵芬芳的玫瑰花教人发狂… …”


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“妳愿意当我的主人吗?我可以为妳做任何事。”黑面娃娃问。
“我当然愿意,但我不是人,你愿意做鬼的仆人吗?”鬼小公主说。
“我不在乎妳是人还是鬼,只要妳给我温暖的拥抱。”
“抱歉,我的身体是冰凉的,不过我还是会拥抱。”
“如果是这样,那就算了,我非常非常需要温暖。”
鬼小公主伤心大哭,让黑面娃娃难过得心都碎了。

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“妳愿意当我的主人吗?我可以为妳做任何事。”黑面娃娃问。
“你可以像变色龙一样变色吗?”变色阿凤说。
“我虽然不会变色,但我还是可以为妳做任何事。”
“可是如果你无法陪我一起变色,你就无法了解我的快乐与忧愁,
如果你无法了解我的忧愁与快乐,
你为我做的任何事都不会有意义了… …”

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“你愿意当我的主人吗?我可以为你做任何事。”黑面娃娃问。
“你必须拥有魔法,才配做我的仆人。”黑小夜说。
“我没有魔法,但是我拥有很多的爱。”
“如果你没有魔法,你就不可能拥有不变的爱,
爱是很容易消失的… …”黑小夜冷冷地说。
“可是爱就是魔法啊!”黑面娃娃委屈地说。


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“妳愿意当我的主人吗?我可以为妳做任何事。”黑面娃娃问。
“你可以让我重新看见这个世界吗?”粉红小象问。
“对不起,我无法让妳重新看见这世界,
但是我可以替妳看见这世界,告诉妳任何妳想知道的事。”
“我不想要看见别人看见的世界,
我宁愿想像自己看见的世界… …”

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“妳愿意当我的主人吗?我可以为妳做任何事。”黑面娃娃问。
“你可以请大海将我抛到海中的瓶中信,送给我的爱人吗?”茉莉说。
“妳的爱人是谁?他几岁?住在哪里?叫什么名字?长什么样子?”
“他是与我有缘分的人,但我并不知道他是谁。”
“缘分是世界上最不可靠的东西… …”

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“你愿意当我的主人吗?我可以为你做任何事。”黑面娃娃问。
“我不知道耶。”包子头搔搔头说。
“为什么说你不知道?”
“因为我的脑袋没有能力告诉我,我不知道该如何回答你。”
“也许我可以为你思考… …”
“我们不要讨论这么费脑筋的事好吗,
我们只需要手牵手一起散散步… …”

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“妳愿意当我的主人吗?我可以为妳做任何事。”黑面娃娃问。
“你可以一直陪我徜徉在雨里吗?
我是雨的仆人,你也愿意当雨的仆人吗?”雨滴妹妹说。
“… …”
冰冷的雨水不断打在黑面娃娃的脸上,
他冷得浑身颤抖… …

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“妳愿意当我的主人吗?我可以为妳做任何事。”黑面娃娃问。
“很抱歉,我已经有一个忠心的仆人了,不需要再多一个。”
王大明头上的花儿说。
“可是妳的仆人并不愿意为妳做任何事啊!”
“我不需要他为我做任何事,我只需要他需要我。”

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“你可以当我的主人吗?我可以为你做任何事。”黑面娃娃问。
“我需要一个朋友,不是一个仆人。”木马头说。
“朋友和仆人有什么不同?”
“朋友可以陪我一起奔跑,其至跑赢我,仆人只能跟在后面。”
“虽然你很大方地那么说,但是为什么你一个朋友也没有呢?”

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“妳愿意当我的主人吗?我可以为妳做任何事。”黑面娃娃问。
“为什么你需要一个主人?你可以做自己的主人啊。”白小天问。
“做一个主人需要什么条件?”
“只需要为自己而活就是自己的主人。”
“妳是自己的主人,但为什么妳的人生还是黑白的呢?”

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“亲爱的球儿宝,我会不会一辈子都找不到新的主人?”
黑面娃娃绝望地问。
“为什么找一个新的主人,对你那么重要?”
“黑面娃娃的使命就是要陪伴着寂寞的主人,
当全世界都遗弃他时,他至少可以紧紧抱着我度过黑暗的时光。
我不在乎被遗弃,我只担心一个需要我的主人不断与我错过
而此刻正独自忧伤… …”

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“你可以做我的主人吗?我可以为你做任何事。”黑面娃娃问。
大树人仁慈地说:“哈哈,当然可以,但是我缺少一颗心,
所以我不是人,只有人才有主仆之分。
我要做你的好朋友,我们可以天天在一起。”
黑面娃娃不敢相信自己的耳朵,他怯怯地说:
“你可以把你刚刚说的话,再大声地说一遍吗?”
“除非你愿意做我的朋友,我才愿意再说一遍。”

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黑面娃娃终于找到亲爱的主人了,
他的主人不是人,但是他比任何人都像个人,
他要用最大的爱来报答他。
但是大树人还是酷酷地说:
“我只是一颗长得像人的植物,我缺少一颗心,所以我不是人。
你不用爱我那么多,我是不会被感动的。”
说着说着,他们都流出感动而欣喜的眼泪… …

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黑面娃娃紧紧地抱着大树人,
冬天的落叶一片片飘下来。
大树人说别怕,
如果你还是感到寒冷可以将我烧了取暖。
因为我不是人,所以我拥有无尽的爱,
愿意永不停歇的付出… …

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人人都需要一个温暖快乐的结局。


nice story isn't it?hope you enjoyed it!!(and must appreciate it wor!!because i took hours to retype and crop all this pictures...haha!!=P)


p.s. i'm so glad the doll had a very great ending...if not i'll feel very bad for not being able to find it and love it with all i can...cherish your dolls too yea? =) haha...

a grand dream of mine...

since young i have been hoping that i can have a piano of my own, and able to play gracefully...

but i know it can never be true...because my parents will never buy for me, given our financial condition...so it is always a dream that can never come true...

but my dream revived just not long ago...because i have decided to work hard after As to earn enough money to afford the cheaper one...well...that is after my As though...

this is my grand dream...the one that i really really want to get...but i shall wait patiently for my husband to buy for me...haha!!did i just scare away all the guys planning to go after me?haha...=P

C7-=-7' 6" Concert Collection Grand Piano

so, knowing that i can only afford an upright piano, i went to search for one...then my eyes fall on one of them...find it really nice at the first look...even till now...that time when i saw it was on yamaha america's website...so there is no pricing...so went to singapore's website to checkout the price...and guess how much is it?i shall let you have a look at it and decide the price...=)

DU1A-=-48" Mark III SeriesUpright Disklavier

so what do you think?

it's around $18,600!!!i almost faint when i saw it...i thought only grand piano cost that much?!!

so...haiz...i can only blame my 'good eyesight'...heh...so right now...i can only think of this...

JU109 Silent

i can only afford this...heh...though my final target is that very first one...heh...sounds like an ugly duckling trying to turn into a beautiful swan isn't it?well...just hope that the dream will not be far...and i am willing to work all the way for it...well, don't ask me why...because it is all worthwhile...and too good to be a dream come true...=)


to those lucky ones out there with piano, do cherish them yea?you will never know there somewhere out there with people like me, dreaming of having one...but never been able to have one...

midnight sun...=)

my apologies for the 'very very long to come' update...heh...but i believe i am going to bore you guys with this stuff...'cause i just want to talk about the show which i really love...love it so much that i actually bought the dvd...then when i first 'attempt' to watch it, it was during my very first and last CCC camp...was watching with melia on shannon's laptop...it was...around 3 am in the night i think...then as we watched, the laptop died a while after, or rather, halfway through the show...so we took shannon's charger and went to one of the classrooms...then as i watched...i got more and more tired...then i fall asleep...omg...i seriously didnt mean it...the show was so nice...but i am just too tired...then after that i went to shane's house, attempting to finish watching it, but again, i fall asleep again!!i felt so bad lahz...but then again...i only slept for 40 minutes the previous day...so i shall not blame myself so much...heh...=P then i decided to watch it only when i am FULLY awake...so after one or two weeks of painful waiting, i finally wait till the day i finish my common test 2!!!hehe...(and now you know how long ago this happened...XP) then when i went home, i watch it immediately...this time round i managed to finish the show from the start till the end without feeling sleepy!!yeah!!haha...i was so happy that i finally completed my show...but yet, was so touched and sad by the story that i end up having a blocked nose...it is actually not reallt such a sad story...it is just me i guess...none of my friends end up crying like i did lehz...(hmm...)heh...but in any way, i strongly recommend you guys to watch!!haha...=P