sigh~~

the moment i saw my pw results, my first reaction was great disappointment...i actually scored a C for it... >.<
the worse thing was that when i was feeling that bad already, don't know if it is just me or what, but what i interpreted from jolene's words was like as if i deserved that grade...goodness me...i really don't know whether i should mock at myself or get angry over it...=(

mal and li min brokedown today...and when they did, i cursed silently to myself...not because i didn't want them to cry, but because i know when they 'start the ball rolling', i will breakdown too!!well, i admit that my eyes did get teary, and my vision got a little blury, maybe a tear or two came out, but i am so glad that nobody saw it...hah...because everyone's too concerned about mal and li min...they saved my life...ha...=P

well, after all that incident and stuff like that, i want to use this opportunity to thank three angels who brightened up my gloomy day today...=)

firstly is chun yuan, for giving me all the encouragements he gave to cheer me up, bringing me through all the things that happened today...thanks so much!!he gave me this quote, which i will keep in mind all the time: "when the night seems to be at its darkness, it only mean that the sun is rising soon. so persevere and things will become better..." =) so sweet of him to keep cheering me on...ha...what a disgrace i am...i actually need a 2 years younger junior to console me...>.<
second person is mallory, who is so sweet to message me to cheer up and feel better about our grades...all that encouragements...i will never forget how lucky i am to have her as my pw mate...=D
almost at the same time or right after mal's sms, jie lun's came in...heh...and just when i saw both of theirs, i was so touched that my tears welled in my eyes for a long long time......i think the people around me must be thinking what's wrong with me...ha...but i am just so touched lahz!!anyway, no matter what was the results, in my heart we have already scored a big A, and that they will always be my bestest pw mates ever...=)
and in my heart, we make the best team ever!! =D

an update on my 'bag-hunt': to my dismay, the bad was not available in orchard too...haiz...another wasted trip...i guess my next try would be Queensway Shopping Centre, which will be after CT2...hopefully i'll be able to find it there!! >.<

to my 3 guardian angel of the day, i am really glad to have you guys around...i really wouldn't know how bad i will feel if you guys wasn't there to support me...thanks so much and love you guys always!! =D

oops...

omg...i did not know until nurul told me yesterday...heh...she said i sound as if i like wilson in my previous blog~!!oh my...so just in case of anymore misunderstandings(including my poor da ge...hope that i didnt scare him off...haha!! XP), yep, wilson is regarded as my big brother, and i am so lucky to be his xiao mei!!haha...=D

attempted to get a new adidas bag on tuesday, but could not find the one i want at vivo city...haiz...but nevertheless, i will still try my luck out tomorrow at orchard...=)
but then...i still can't find my shoes...think it has already extinct...>.<

went to IMH yesterday...although i know it is wrong to feel sad for them, but i just can't help but to feel remorseful...because they are just right in front of me, yet i just can't do anything to help them...haizz...anyway, just to add on, i feel that there is one J1 whom i think has got the potential...hmm...maybe i should try and let him handle some stuff and see how is it...=)

just happen to message with adrian...and with his 'i'm a changed person', i am really looking forward to meet up with him, sy and sandy to catch up with them and see how much has he changed...=)

realised that there is a load of things to do after common test too...got alot of people to meet up...heh...and i realise i have accumulated a load of presents at home because i just couldn't find time to meet them up...heh...hope i'll be able to do it after common test...(pai seh worz people!!>.<)

getting back my A level Project Work results tomorrow...so excited and nervous about it!!haha...to my bestest pw group mates:we will do the best of all!!hahaha....=P and all the best to the three of us!!yeah!!haha....(no matter what's the results, let's cry together tomorrow at 4pm...=D)

oh...and common test is just 4 days away...so let me hug the buddha's leg for the next few days and pray hard that i'll do well!!ha...ramahiyuizaki GANBATTE KUDASAI!!! =)

learnt from my physics teacher: everyone sees a different rainbow, as we all look at it from different direction...and it is always 40 degrees elevation...so...
everyone of us owns a different rainbow...=)

i promised myself that from today onwards, i shall not dwell on anyone anymore...i will only cherish those who really treasure me, and not try to make those whom i treasure, cherish me...afterall, why should i focus on the closed doors when i know that there a more than a dozen doors waiting for me to open?i know that my guardian angels are out there watching after me, even though they did not show it...but i'm sure that they are always there(reading my blog too!!) to ensure that everything goes well for me...hey, you guys are my earth angels...=) and i just want to say, thanks so much and i love you guys...=)

age gap..............?

while i was trying to get the RNA transcription processes into my brain, it just came across my mind the conversation that i had with wilson 'da ge'...save the contents, but there was this part where he was saying that he will definitely love us if he was younger...(ehh...in case anybody starts to misunderstand, yes he said 'us', which includes alot of people...)anyway that was not what i want to say...at that point of time, i did not think that much...because i don't find him old in any ways...maybe because i hang around to much with my brother...haha...but until just now, then it striked me that wilson was born in 81...which means he is old year older than my brother...which means...he is the same age as him...then i wonder if it is a common thought that guys of that age are not suitable for girls like my age because of that age gap...i always thought that it has been said that love can overcome all obstacles...well, i guess not everyone perceives that thought...there are also married couples with age gap as far as 10 years...and it does not seemed like a problem...but people around me has been telling me that he is far too old for me...

but...is 7 years really considered a large age gap? >.<

i'm not bothered by what others think...but what ponders/worries me is...if you share the same thought as them...

-midnight sun-

if i didn't went to search for it today, i wouldn't know that i have already missed it long ago...
it was such a nice show...well, that is what it seemed to me...
and i still remember telling my friend that i want to watch this show...
and now when i saw the release date of the movie, i was dumbfounded...it was mid-december 2006...and yet i did not know...well, guess i was just too busy with the december event that i did not realise that it was released...
heh...and now i am hoping that the vcd/dvd would be available...>.<
oh my...how dumb can i be?
i actually missed two of the movies which i most wanted to watch...and i thought that this movie was 'coming soon' instead of it being over...sianz...
but surprisingly, i noticed that the two main songs in this japanese show is YUI's 'Goodbye Days' and 'Feel My Soul'...unknowingly, i have the second song because shane sent it to me...and i did not know that it was used in the movie until just now...-.-" just how dumb can i be?
i believe it is going to be a really nice show...just like music and lyrics...
oh no!!vcds-to-buy list is piling up...(actually it is only two...but still~~~)
sigh~~it's going to be another hole in my pocket~~~>.<

oh...and the dumb me forgot to introduce the show to you guys...

so here i go~

as you know, the title is 'midnight sun', talking about a girl, who suffered from fromxeroderma pigmentosum, a disease whereby she cannot be exposed to sunlight, fall in love with a surfer...

well i think it has a sad ending, but i think i will still love it...haha...=)

it has been so long since we've talk...and you have yet to reply...do you still remember me?

is that backstabbing?

omg...i think i've just witnessed a backstabbing today...and i really hope i didnt see it...alright,time to bitch about it...i dont care if she gets to hear this or not, but i just want to vent it out...back-trackking to the time where i finished school at 4...but got to stay back for the exco meeting at 6...everything was okay when dao rong and i sat at the concourse waiting for time to pass...then when someone else came, and complaint about someone...i dont know if its delibrate of what, but she actually complaint about someone whom im so close with IN FRONT OF ME!!wth...it became worse when i heard what she is complaining about...she actually say that tat someone is NOT DOING ANYTHING (when she is actually doing practically EVERYTHING...)...then she said that mr yew said that she should not do all the things by herself...omg did i hear it wrong?!!she actually said that she should not ALWAYS do ALL the things HERSELF!!my goodness...i seriously wonder if mr yew was BLIND or she is, as usual, trying to exaggerate things...haiz...but im just pissed that she actually tried to pollute my mind that that someone is not doing work, and she is doing everything...*roll eyes* then i tried to 'explain' to her that that someone has much more stuff to do, just that her stuff is all needed to be done at home and not during ccc, then she starts to bring out that that someone read storybook during ccc last week...i was like:@#*&%!! i still can remember that one of the ccc session she hold on to jie lun's storybook everywhere she went, and was enjoying herself lahz!!haizz...for a moment i wonder why people just dont reflect on what they have done, and yet, dare to point out mistakes that they themselves have committed seriously...

if i were to have committed the same mistakes before, i'll be the one keeping quiet and not being the one making the most noise like her...

monday....blues? X)

just somehow feel so proud of myself today...hehe...because i went to tampines mall alone after lessons,and got something for my two bestest besties in school...=D

although this is a very simple keychain...but i think the words on it speaks alot...=)

its costly...but im sure its all worth to see her smile after such a stressful period it has been for her...=)

oh ya...and in the same shop, i saw the very very big 'big foot teddy'!!!!im so in love with the big bear that i just wanna bring it home!!haha... and i wanted to take a picture of it...but i realise that the salesgirl was somehow watching me...so i decided not to take the risk, and took the smaller version ones instead...haha...

haha...i guess buying stuff just helps to lift my my spirits...XD aww...i'm such a spoilt brat...haha....then i end up in ntuc...and something caught my eye which i think my bro would love...so i stopped and bought it...haha...im just so happy today...=D

well, what can be much more better than getting a simple 'thanks' from him, knowing that he mean what he say and appreciates it? =)

well, there's another thing that i'm proud of myself too...that is to not let myself down by lending her my sgc to 'duplicate' another one...simply because it took me so much pains and time to produce that crappy sgc, though it might not be up to standard, but i admit that i did put in alot of effort in doing it...so when she asked from me, and knwoing that she'll definitely copy most of the things inside, the unfairness feelings that were deep buried from past incidents started to resurface...and i feel that if i were to lend her mine, i would not be only letting myself down, but also all those who took pains to produce it...and i think she has really got things way too easily...just that she's good at pleading doesn't mean that everyone will give in to her...well, i do admit that i find it difficult to reject, but i'm sure i'll definitely regret if i were to do her this favor this time round...so...i think im very brave today to say 'no' to preserve my principle...=D

alright~~~i know i seemed rather 'high' today...well, no i did not take any chocolate today...haha...hmm...but im really proud of myself to spend on my besties for no occasions...heyy...dont think that im a spendthrift okayy...well, even though i may seem to be one...but i guess i'm just happy to imagine their happiness upon receiving it...heez...cant wait for wed!! XD

just wanna be really nice to my cherished, such that even if i were to die in the next minute, i would have no regrets...=)