well,juz to rationalize...=)

well i guess some of u guys might be wondering why did i change my blog from friendster to blogspot, it is because of a few reasons...firstly it is because my friendster blog faced some unknown problems, such that people cant visit my blog...though i'm still able to update it...strange right?i've no idea what happened too...so here i am, shifting all my previous blogs to start anew...=)
actually it is partly due to that i feel very restricted in what i want to say in my friendster blog, simply because almost the whole world uses freindster, and if i were to wrote in all my dislikes from cca and stuff like that, it'll be like as if i'm emphasizing or delibrately trying to tarnish whatever thing's reputation.i believe it will also cause certain unnecessary drop in morale and stuff like that, especially when im part of the committee...then it'll show, to a even larger extent, on what kind of quality it is of...so...at least over here, i can find my freedom of speech...haha...and that would mean that you guys will be facing more of my grumbles!!pros and cons isn't it?haha...
and at first i wanted to restrct my blog...but i realize the poor guys whom i restricted my blog to have to sign up for a google account to be able to view my blog...and that is so troublesome!!so...i lifted that restiction...even though i've no idea how i manage to set up a blog without getting a google account...heez...tell u a secret, all i did is to sign in to google with my hotmail address, with my hotmail password...=P
well, lastly, i need you guys to do me a favor...that is--i hope that you guys won't go around to circulate my blog address to others...(not trying to say that everyone wants to see my blog) but because i might write in stuff that might not be nice to certain people, so just in case if i really do, please make sure those that you circulate to are not those who always pisses me off, and those that i'm most liekly to condemn...i guess you guys should have someone in mind upon reading this right?yep, so please do me this favor...thanks lotz!! =)

way back into love...=)

I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past
I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need them again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
Oh oh oh

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere

I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not just somebody just to get me through the night
I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end

an intense war with flu viruses...

YEAH!!!finally i created this blog!!!haha...i wonder how did i do it, especially with my tight schedule...
my nose has been leaking since yesterday....aww...and also sorethroat....arghh!!stupid viruses!!! >.<
anw...this blog isnt that established yet...especially when i'm a computer idiot...so....heez....please pardon me if any inconvenience is caused...
got to go~~~~
cya~~ =)

don't...

some thoughts just came to my mind randomly...they might sound a little stupid and funny, but well, can't really help it since its some random thoughts yeah?hehe...yep, so just to share with you guys...
don't ask me how i am going to spend my holidays

if you're not trying to ask me out...

don't tell me that you're busy...

don't tell me that you'll let me know again

if you plan to inform someone else instead...

don't tell me that you thought it doesn't matter...

don't give promises that we will meet up again

if you don't plan to do that...

don't tell me that you forgot...

don't ask me about my guy friends

if you're not interested in me...

don't tell me that you're just concerned...

don't stare at me when my friends offer me help

if you don't wish to offer me yours...

don't tell me that you're just being neutral...

don't encourage me to go along

if you don't wish to have me there...

don't tell me that you're just being nice...

don't don't don't don't don't don't don't don't don't don't don't....

doesn't that sounds poetic?anyway don't worry if you do not understand what i am typing...because i find it quite senseless too...haha...

have a nice day ahead and take care!! =)

for you guys...=)

last year's A level results are out, and so is my mother tongue result...how can a place be filled with both happiness and sadness?well, that was my school hall...and i am pretty sure that that will happen again in next year...but hopefully i am crying, with tears of joy...=)

well, just want to drop a little message to some of my friends who added colours into my life...

--congrats keith, for passing your As with flying colours!!and hope that you'll get your choice of course...remember to continue to study hard in U in the future!! =)

--congrats to joseph too, for scoring that straight As in your As!!haha...thanks for praying that i'll score well in my MT as well...haha!!and hope that you will be able to find the course in which you will have the passion in, soon...=)

--congrats to Huang Hao too!!haha...though i doubt you'll get to see this message...but nevertheless, congrats for scoring your 4 As, and thanks for being concern about my MT results too!! =)

--big thanks to Kim Boon for the concern towards my MT results!!thanks for all the encouragement too!! =)

--oh ya, and THANKS to Joel, who forgot that it was me that he wanted to look for when he got his results!!*SOBZ*...haha!!just kidding dude!!at least you still came back on that following mon...(luckily you came...or else i am going to haunt you!! =P) and thanks for the encouragements and the Pocky(i am so touched!!)!!haha...i am going to keep it in my cupboard until i finish my As...haha...and congrats in scoring an A in your Econs!!*hint hint*...haha...dont run away when i want tutoring in Econs!! =P

--K Luon!!no matter what, don't give up ok?and dont feel bad...because i am sure that you have done your very best!! =)

--hey wilson ting!!i know you are not very satisfied with your results...but well, just look forward and choose your course wisely yeah? =)

--thanks to Dannies for the encouragements!!and don't worry, i will do my very best to make sure i get the honour of your treat!!haha...=)

--and of course, the last 'dedication' for the most important person...that is my dearest Melia!!thanks so much for always being there for me when i need you, and i know this few days...or rather months...i have been troubled and disturbed by a lot of issues...thanks for all your understandings, respecting my silence when i don't feel like talking, and also all your attempts to cheer me up...=) when everything went wrong, the only thing that can keep me going is to know that you care...thanks so much!*lots of love* =)

hope that i did not miss anyone out, and please let me know if i did ok?thanks lots!! =)

i feel that you should reflect...

well, though i should be feeling rejoice over both my common test results and 'A' levels mother tongue results, (not saying that i did very well for my common test -- it is just purely by chance that i did better than i expected) but i am feeling rather confused or maybe more of disappointed about something that happened recently...i seriously do not know how to react when i realise that the one whom i admire and respect so much, whom i thought understands me most, happens to be someone who hurts me the most, by handling things selfishly, to benefit himself...and worst of all, he actually do not understand me to a rather large extent...well i am not trying to say that i am very mature, but...isn't it even more childish to insist that things would go your way and to try means and ways to make it go your way, even though you might be wrong?who says that your 'analysis' and 'conclusion' you gave to us is definitely 100% correct?even if it is so, can't we have even a chance to prove you that you are wrong?in my life, there are things whereby i do because i am just being playful, but there are also things whereby i do, because i am clear of the things i want!well i might not have put in any effort into my studies yet, but there are some things in my life that i am definite about!what makes you think that just by your own assumption, you can predict a ending that can never have a chance to be proven wrong due to all your doings??sometimes i really do feel the growth of the tiny hatred bean i had towards you...but do you know how much it pains me to be sandwiched between the love and hatred i have towards you, after the so much respect and admiration i accumulate over this years?unless you are saying that all your doings had made everyone feel better, but definitely not for me...