i feel that im losing them...pls tell me that im not...

shucks...another negative blog up here...life just doesnt seem to be getting anywhere better...haizz...i knew it...i knew the moment i choose the jc route, i will lose them gradually...and as far as i know and dread, i'm right.cant help it right?we are all in different school...i thought true friendship can always last the distance?haizz...that was what i THOUGHT...the 6 of us...has now become the 5 of them...dont know since when...i felt the gap between us...tried to get it back...but to no avail...we use to crap around and had so much fun...but now?i can feel that all of us are quite awkward when we got out together...perhaps u all will not say it...but i do feel it...and it hurts...yea...it really does...i am already starting to regret for entering sr for tha sake of ccc...u people are the only reason i dont regret going poly...but would u all become the reason i regret going jc?i dont know...i hope i dont have to regret at all...i hope i dont even have the chance to...i hope...